Breathe, I understand things might be difficult. You know the best way to handle yourself when you cannot find a way out?. Go to him. Go to someone you love. Communicate. Give all you have in you to that one person you trust your life with. Believe it or not, I did the same.
U may think that just a coward would do that. No, think it again. Giving in to someone needs courage. Trusting someone needs courage. Asking someone to handle your life until you can take over it, needs strength. Sometimes being dependent works. You know why?. Because somewhere his existence becomes a pleasure to you, and in this journey you will find your own existence.
He would be pleasured to help you. Let his gravity hold you down for awhile. I bet Newton wouldn’t mind that. Give your world in his hands, he will heal you.
I HEALED THE SAME WAY.